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These three adjectives are a mainstay in our lives now-a-days. They could be used to describe our thoughts, emotions and feelings at many given moments.
Why are we so angry? Well, that’s obvious. We do not have a child yet. Delving deeper, because we do not have a child yet our lives are on hold going through this madness. To let something else out, we are angry, and at the same time reluctantly happy for our friends for being able to have multiple kids with little to no effort. We are mad that this process is costing us money we did not plan on spending.
This anger goes hand in hand with frustration. We are frustrated that all of our efforts have failed. All the doctors’ visits, all the medications and all the painful shots have been for nothing. It is frustrating that we are the only ones in our group of friends and family that are childless. It winds us up so tightly that other things around us such as work, chores, and meaningless tasks frustrate as well.
Of course this inevitably leads to depression. While it may or may not be clinically diagnosed or have a need for anti-depressant medication, all of this makes us feel down in the dumps. There are days we do not want to get out of bed. Each time we receive bad news about a cycle we spiral further into sadness. We can pick ourselves up and get motivated for potential next steps but sooner or later depression will hit us again.
What a vicious cycle.
If it sounds like we are dramatizing the helplessness of our situation, don’t worry, its not an act. This is real and how we really feel.
